Trying to start a relationship - A zentai lover's statement

Here below is A zentai lover's statement and it's also a reflection of lots zentai lovers

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So, I'm 25, and I've never been in a serious relationship. My friends and family are all getting engaged around me, and I don't even have someone i can call a significant other.

I'm trying to work on that, except I have a few issues.
1. I'm "confused" with my sexuality (i.e. i "want" to be able to have a relationship with a female, but my inner feelings seem to want a male).
2. I consider my spandex fetish a significant part of my life
3. I consider 1 and 2 to be significant parts of "me", but also my biggest secrets.

I briefly tried a relationship in college, but while trying to be open, it kind of backfired a bit on me and I had a bad experience.

So, I'm trying to start a relationship with a girl I met at work (who has since returned to school), and we started "dating" right after xmas. 

So, obviously, the relationship is already with its challenges currently being long-distance. But she's also picking up that I'm being very reserved and closed, and also not reciprocating the feelings as much.

So not really knowing if this relationship can or will work out for any length of time, I think i'm going to have a hard time developing any kind of intimate relationship with these dilemmas I'm presenting myself with and I feel close to wit's end.

Obviously there is no one easy right answer, maybe I just needed to get this off my chest. It's just hard. Very hard.

I mean, she seems pretty open and whatnot, so if I told her I had a spandex fetish, it might go ok, or if I told her I was bisexual, that might go over ok too. (probably not both at the same time). But if I told her, if she accepts it or likes, or understands it, it could bring us very close together. Or, it could blow up in my face and she could tell people what I consider to be my biggest and most closely guarded secrets. 

*sigh*